Monday 11th July - The weekend went so quick I barely even saw it!!

Good morning all and welcome to the start of another week. 

I had the intentions of writing about events on both Saturday and Sunday, but with everything that seemed to happen the time just flew by and before I knew it, it was Monday morning again.  The weekend was a busy one with lots of flying around all over the place trying to get my jobs done.  I was successful in doing this, however the ME time I promised myself got side lined, again!!

It was my lovely mummy's birthday on Sunday and that proved to be a very emotional day for me.  I think that, combined with hormones and missing my baby girl is what made it a day of tears.  I couldn't tell you why but I found myself crying at everything.  I even watched an episode of  "send in the dogs" and was in tears when one of the dogs let a suspect get away.  It was also the weekend that it dawned on me that my mum wasn't going to be here to help me with my second baby.  Everyone says that this one will be a doddle and that I already know what I'm doing, but lets be honest, no one knows what they're doing and when we need help we always turn to our mums.  I'm very lucky to have a group of amazing friends and family, who I know will support me, but it's not the same is it.

An update on the baby blanket is that the image in my head didn't quite make it to the fabric and Dion now has a play mat.  Holly has kindly tested it for me several times, so I know it meets the baby test and if nothing else I can say that it is a gift that truly comes from the heart.

A stupid day had at work this morning with lots of discussions about whether I have a job to come back to after maternity leave.  As if being pregnant isn't taking enough out of me, it now seems I have to prove why my project is worth keeping, to people who have already made their minds up that they don't want to keep it.  I'm feeling fat, hot and bothered and really can't be muffed with this at the moment.

I'm really looking forward to getting to nursery to pick Holly up and have our regular half an hour in the park.  Think I need a bit of perspective and she gives it like no one else.  I need to keep telling myself that I work to live and not live to work and I'm a creative person so I will make an opportunity for myself and my family.

A long soak in the bath with Josephine Cox and non alcoholic wine is most certainly in order to finish my day.

Here's to getting rid of Monday and getting one step closer to the weekend :)

Lovez

Suz xxx